Friday, May 4, 2012

Appearances

what are your top 4 things about korea?

ok, hmm, let's see i'd say best things about the island so far right? they have really good broth/stew things. the two best dishes i've had involve meat stewed with rice, seaweed, and vege. i'll have to get the names. obviously the low cost of living is a plus, and the ocean view. it seems a shallow list everytime i try and think of something... because to me even top things imply love- and i don't have any loves yet or transcendent moments that were 'the best time ever!'. i have a feeling they'll seep into me slowly and will be things i miss once i'm gone- like cherry blossoms, and magpies or the infuriating wind, or the windows in my apartment or the latte at yogerpresso, or maybe the handsome older gentleman in the golf cap and tweeds who just absolutely smacks of style and finesse that i ride the bus with at 11:10. we'll see. so nothing to rave about yet, but there was a feeling i had last night of meeting with some girls to pray and learn about meditation and i felt a grounding welcoming presence and that was nice.

do you have time to read and journal?

though school is ridiculously consuming compared to most hagwans on the island, it's more a matter of will than opportunity. i downloaded my first audible. pillars of the earth. we'll see. i read curiousity shop online and have read a few grimms fairytales and 'open mind/open heart'... so i suppose that's not so bad. they have to compete with my music habits which are constant, as well as my copious downloading of what i'm missing from home. even today i'm home later than i would be on saturdays and haven't done anything but futz with my apt- sweep, declutter if thats possible and email people. journaling besides this is taking a major beating and has been for years. every so often i'll journal what i'm meditating on or a prayer at church but that's it. so as much as i love the idea and have a few empty ones waiting for me at home i dont really use them anymore which is such a bummer.

what creative outlet are you allowing yourself at the moment?

i don't know. they find me. i mean i made that giraffe thing. i stitched curtains. i made a friend photo collage when i got here but so far that's it. nothing else has set its sight as my must do project when i get home. i did find a couple cheap containers to throw some seeds in and we'll see what comes up provided i can find a place to put them...

pictures of hyuk joon's devil and monster?


his and a few other kids drawings that i laminated... nevermind that i can't decorate my classroom bcs  they want them to look uniform and that the school itself is a weird impersonal and sterile place for a kids school. i'll have to settle for trying to invade spaces on my white board for now. for instance i had a window sticker thing the kids gave me of a cat and i came into the classroom one day to see it had been broken into tiny bits- not sure if someone tried to take it down and move it and it became really brittle or she  whoever was being a horrible person. and super controlling without actually saying anything but just moving everything off the wall to make a point.


but on a better note i'm off to find a volleyball tournament team to play in, grocery shopping, and watching some wind surfers outside my window and the cat param-ah curled up next to me on a pillow and some zydeco music playing on itunes. it's saturday and the day awaits... and i get paid on the 10th. there's always that.

1 comment:

somebody's mom said...

Always a delight to see that you have written. Heart you.